"That's caveman stuff, and there's no way you can stop it," my friend Kris told Ken and me over carrot-orange-ginger juice and corn meal pancakes at the Roost today. I was just past (but not past) a CT scan, a routine check because of all the pancreatic cancer in my family. To my surprise, once lying down, happily chatting up the technician, I went from A-Ok to No-Way-In-Hell in a flash. All it took was the machine moving me toward the scanner, and panic took over the wheel. This is not to say I didn't try to then smooth down [...] Read More
I screwed up. When it comes to some close friends who suffer greatly from the kind of depression beyond comprehension -- mine at least -- I haven't always understood what my pals were going through or how to truly show up without my fixer-bee faux-super-cheery hero cape on. Instead, to sooth my anxiety over their emotional state, I offered a smorgasbord of solutions that would solve the problem (as I saw it) of despairs if that despair was just some fog the sun of new plans could burn away. True, I also listened well, but listening doesn't always equate understanding. [...] Read More
Time for a break I started teaching when I was 26. It was English 101 at the University of Kansas, a gig I figured would help me get through graduate school so I could cozy up with my real calling: writing. A funny thing happened on the way through the classroom: I was instantly smitten and soon discovered that teaching was just as much my real work. I regularly told my students, struggling with essay-writing on demand, what I told myself as a writer: Don't think. Pay attention. Keep going. It served us all well. This fall (starting [...] Read More
With temperatures rising to summertime and good rains falling last week, everything is speeding into growth around this house. The hostas look like they're on steroids, and all blossoming things are exploding into petals until they're spent to thin, brown paper. Within the house of this human, a whole lot is growing exponentially too, coming to fruition at 80 mph. A bunch of projects that seemed maybe-ish are definite, meaning my days are full with finalizing an extensive online class with Laura Packer on our Right Livelihood Professional Training, watching clips of pre-Holocaust Jewish life in Europe for an upcoming [...] Read More
Why are they so mind-blowingly beautiful? Is it the delicate petal, something between paper and flesh? Or the enormous resilience of seemingly delicate twists of blossoming ethers that can hold up their angel bodies in ferocious storms and come up smiling the next morning? Is it the colors -- batik blues and black-purples glistening in the rain, gold dissolving to peach to pink or yellow cusps of sun folded around a quiet center of intoxication? Also, the yellow ones smell like lemons, the purple ones like grapes, and the brown ones like chocolate. Whatever it is, irises had me at [...] Read More
Did you know you can sing "Weeding in the Rain" to the same tune as "Singing in the Rain"? In a sense, both songs are about falling in love, at least for Gene Kelly and me. After weeks of not getting to the garden for a garden variety of reasons -- book release stuff to organize, too cold, too muddy, too dry, more book release stuff to do, too tired, third winter arriving, yet more book release things to check off the list, and oh, why go outside when I can lie on the couch and watch Netflix? -- it [...] Read More
Usually, April, what T.S. Eliot called the cruelest month, is, but it's also stunningly beautiful, a paradox for a working poet and a gal who, all too often, couldn't say no. Because I make a hunk of my living from gigs -- readings, workshops, talks, projects -- and a good many poetry gigs are often ghettoized into April (aka Poetry Month), my Aprils were often overbooked. Not so coincidentally, I often was rocking a sinus infection that wouldn't let up, a bout of migraines, and a heavy dose of insomnia during this time of the blossoming world ecstatic with life, [...] Read More
As I was leaving the house for our trip to Bentonville, Arkansas -- a weekend of r & r, and excuse to visit the amazing Crystal Bridges museum -- I ran back inside to grab a copy of Miriam's Well, my new novel, because I sensed I needed to give it to someone. Who I would find out later. We stopped at Crystal Bridges Friday night about 7:30 p.m., figuring it was closed but wanting to scope out the place. It was open until 9 p.m., and it turns out, that is the perfect time to visit one of the greatest art [...] Read More
Every March, I seek the magnolia trees growing recklessly in Kansas where it's almost guaranteed that their tree-full of pink blossoms will meet Mean Old Mr. Winter with a fury. These trees are meant to grow in warmer climes, but they seem to survive okay here despite an annual attack (or two) of icy temperatures, turning those fragrant and curvy blossoms sad and brown-edged. I love magnolia trees. Let me be more honest: I really and deeply love magnolia blossoms, and it's one of my recurring nightmares to miss them in their prime, especially since those prime weeks can be reduced to [...] Read More
Our long gravel drive was puddled and muddy, so there was no way the huge semi carrying my new book, Miriam's Well: A Modern Day Exodus, could slip-slide to our house without asking for trouble, plus there's the matter of the power lines it would rip through in the journey. So between ordering bierocks at Free State Brewery with Daniel and going home, we decided to meet the driver in an alley behind a local grocery store. From there, it was a matter of a whole lot of weight lifting: 200 books x 575 pages each + the weight of boxes [...] Read More
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